Am I getting better?

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Am I getting better?

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Am I really improving?

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Am I really going to impact the world?

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Or is this all for nothing?

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Is this all to satisfy my own ego?

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To make myself believe that I’m making a difference?

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Is my writing getting better?

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Am I really becoming more confident?

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More sure of myself?

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Or am I lying to myself?

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Is anyone even paying attention?

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Does it matter?

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Why does it matter?

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Why are we always looking for validation?

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To make us feel worthy?

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Of what?

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So other people like us?

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Do we need everyone to like us?

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Or just enough people to like us?

Why do we want everyone to like us?

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Constantly looking for attention?

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Why do we want what other people want?

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Why do we focus on what we don’t have rather than what we do?

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Why do we focus on the negative instead of the positive?

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Do these questions even matter?

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Does my writing even matter?

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Do I even matter?

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We’re all supposed to matter, but do we?

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Does our opinion really matter?

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Or are we all just speaking into the void?

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Why do we pretend like we know what we’re doing?

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Like we have it all figured out?

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Or are we just pretending?

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Shouldn’t it be about having fun?

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About improving the world in whatever way you think?

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Trying to do something every day that’s bigger than yourself?

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Trying to get better even if it doesn’t feel like it?

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So don’t worry if you’re getting better.

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At least you’re trying.

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