All I'm doing is trying

All I’m doing is trying:

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All I’m doing is trying.

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That’s it.

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Showing up.

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Every day.

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Trying to be a little bit better.

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In anything I can.

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I like to try new things.

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Push myself in unique ways.

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Do things that seem off the beaten path.

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This has been my life.

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The story of my life.

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I believe we’re all much more capable than we think.

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So much more capable.

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But we hold ourselves back.

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We are our own worst critics.

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We overthink to a point where we don’t even try.

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So I figured out.

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Let me just try.

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Just try different things.

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It came to me as a kid.

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Thanks mom and dad.

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They’re the reason I tried so many things.

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Was put into so many activities as a kid.

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Basketball, tennis, swimming, music, soccer, and summer camps.

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We were always busy.

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Basically every night of the week.

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So I got to try a bunch of things.

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Some I loved.

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Others I hated.

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But I still showed up.

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Swimming was the worst.

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Never enjoyed swimming.

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I was a small tiny kid with no muscle.

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I couldn’t swim fast.

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I couldn’t hold the brick, a 15 lb weight, in the deep end.

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I was shitting bricks every time I showed up at the pool.

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But I still went.

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I was forced into it.

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Thank god I was.

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Learned how to control my emotions.

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To battle through them.

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To understand that the butterflies are actually good.

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They’re a sign you should be doing that.

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You should be uncomfortable.

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That’s the point.

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Growth only happens beyond your comfort zone.

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Beyond what you normally do.

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That’s what this year has been more than anything else.

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The journey to an Ironman.

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To swim 3.8k, bike 180k then run a marathon.

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All together with no break.

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Less than a year ago and I barely knew what a triathlon was.

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Let alone an Ironman.

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And now we’re here.

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Completed an Olympic distance triathlon.

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And competing for an Ironman in a few months.

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All on behalf of a cousin of mine who passed away from cancer at 31.

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The age I’m going to be next year.

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He was like my older brother.

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He inspired me in so many ways.

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He taught me to be comfortable on the edge.

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Be comfortable stepping outside of what people want for you.

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He was into crypto in 2013.

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I remember him telling me about Bitcoin back then thinking what kind of scam is this?

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But turns out, he was right.

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He was prescient beyond his years.

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Always happy to be on the edge.

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To push the boundary.

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You need to do that.

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To go on your edge.

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To push beyond.

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To make yourself uncomfortable.

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To try something new.

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You may not have found your thing yet.

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No worries.

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But have you tried a lot of things?

Have you failed a lot?

Have you looked like a fool?

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Everyone starts out the same.

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A beginner.

A failure.

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Not knowing what to do.

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They just keep sticking with it.

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Showing up again and again.

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Golf taught me that.

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Even on the days where I was nervous on every tee box.

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When I couldn’t hit a ball straight.

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And this is after 15 years of playing the sport.

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You still show up.

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You keep trying.

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It’s gotten me to run a marathon in 4 months.

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To publish 2 books in a summer.

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To publish 1100+ blog posts since 2021.

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To complete an Olympic distance triathlon.

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To train for an Ironman.

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All I’m doing is trying.

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