I feel off

I feel off:

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I feel off.

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Not myself.

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Snippy.

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Defensive.

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Angry.

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Pushed back at someone at work today and came off a bit much.

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I was going at him rather than discussing the point.

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Should I have accepted what he said blankly without a response?

No.

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But should I have handled it better?

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Yea.

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Other people on my team could tell.

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They had to intervene and not make it out to be something bigger than it was.

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Then he called me later and called me out for it.

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I apologized.

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Didn’t have all the information.

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But didn’t appreciate getting blatantly called out for being wrong.

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His argument was he’s done this before and knows what he’s talking about.

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He’s right.

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But don’t think he fully heard what I said.

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I didn’t have all the information.

We were arguing about an exit value for a company.

Trying to model out what a company could get sold for if they hit all their milestones.

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I came up with a number based on common sense and one other acquisition in the space in recent months.

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It wasn’t good enough.

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I know that.

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It’s not a thorough analysis.

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Explained that as much as I could but I wasn’t clear.

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So he called me out.

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And I went back at him.

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Then he called me out of the blue.

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No how’s it going or how you been.

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Just a what the hell happened?

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Stated my case and he told me his.

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Ended up agreeing.

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We need more info to make a decision but we don’t need that info today.

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He wanted me to have that info.

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I didn’t.

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I’ll take the L.

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Good learning experience.

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But since then, I’ve been off.

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Walking to the grocery store, felt off.

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In my own head.

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Angry.

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Maybe it’s the Ravens' loss.

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Hard to believe a sports team can get to me that much.

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But it has in the past.

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This one hurt too being there.

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That wasn’t it though.

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Not sure what it is.

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Maybe a bad night sleep.

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Getting home at 2 am.

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Day off of training.

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Who knows.

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All I know is I was off today.

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Felt it.

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All good.

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Need to acknowledge it.

Relax.

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Chill out.

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Get a good night sleep.

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Tomorrow is a new day.

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Take it as that.

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Just a blip.

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You can’t be on every day.

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You can’t be perfect every day.

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Some days you don’t have it.

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No stress.

Don’t let these days compound.

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Accept what happened, reflect and move on.

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It’s ok to feel off sometimes.

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We all go through it.

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