Day 73 – Nov.18.18 - Let it be

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Just got back from a big boys trip in London. Good to see everyone again, all of us now working and spending money. Went to Duck &Waffle last night and it was truly a magnificent experience. Top 3 dining experiences in my lifetime. Also was dealing with some shit yesterday and I don’t know why I got so upset. I really have a problem not letting go in certain situations and seeing what happens. The problem in my head is inefficiency and wasted time but sometimes life doesn’t have to be about that. What I still need to learn to realize is life is not about plans and efficiency. Yes, in my life solo, I can think about efficiency and plan out everything but shit will still happen. I think the big issue with that group is completely letting go and letting someone take over. The other thing is trying to plan stuff and then not being appreciated for, which I always get mad at as well. I really can’t have it both ways. If I’m going on a trip with these boys again, just stop organizing everything. Not take charge once I arrive, which I need to accept. The other thing is getting back to meditation because I think I’m really missing it. Sometimes you have to let life figure itself out.

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