Nov.28.22 - Day 1521 - Stop playing fake scenarios

So many expectations. So many ideas of what could happen or what should happen. So many question marks of how to act or what to say or know how to be next to someone. So many what ifs and false ideas about other people. Our mind is always racing thinking about what could be or what could’ve happened instead of what does. Focus on having fun and enjoying the moment in front of you. See where it takes you. Don’t get stuck in your head and enjoy what’s there. So often I overthink and contemplate and play fake scenarios in my head that never come true. Oh man I remember it with a girl in uni who I liked. Spent a whole year having a crush on her and watching her go from white guy to white guy who were definite d bags only to realize she never liked me anyway. She didn’t want me. So while I wasted years of my life playing scenarios in my head that never happened, I could’ve known so much earlier. When I finally decided to ask her over text and tell her how I feel, she didn’t feel the same way. I already knew that but wish I made that decision and been honest upfront. Would’ve saved me tons of time. Never waste your time in a relationship with someone who doesn’t want and value you. They gotta be fighting for you as much as you are them.

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