The burden of knowing too much:
The burden of knowing too much.
Of constantly learning.
Of constantly reading.
It’s a lot to handle.
Some days I wish I was dumber.
Wish I wasn’t this curious.
Wasn’t this smart.
Wasn’t this driven to learn.
Life would probably be easier.
Less anxiety.
Less worry.
Less overthinking.
Could just turn on the TV, watch Netflix, watch my sports and call it a day.
But no.
That’s not the life I chose.
That’s not the life that’s interesting to me.
That’s not the life I want to live.
But, it comes at a cost.
Learning about so much.
Trying to balance it all.
Today I’ve been spending time thinking about golf, aliens, underground bases, central bankers, the US government, history, my career, how the pope is elected and enjoying the NBA playoffs.
Sounds like a lot.
And it is.
Yet it feels like a normal day.
Only today is far from normal.
Just watched this interview with Catherine Fitts, a former government official in Bush’s administration who had a career as an investment banker (here).
Truly incredible interview.
One that is so unbelievable that there’s no way it could be real.
Yet what if it is?
I’ve been seeing this come up a lot.
Central bankers and their control of society.
They are above governments.
Above countries.
Above the law.
They are the ones who run the world.
The Great Taking said this much.
This was a documentary I watched last year that talked about central banker’s control.
Their control of the entire system.
Now seeing this interview, I don’t know what to believe.
Is this real?
Are they really trying to destroy society all so them, their kin and the richest in the world can live longer?
Is that really the goal?
God I hope not.
Yet evil is real.
All these massive problems are happening.
Dalio even said today, we may have hit the point of no return with Trump’s tariff policy.
He’s been talking for years about the Changing World Order.
Now we’re truly living through it.
Now that tariffs are out of the bag and the world has seen what Trump is doing, why would anyone go back to a unipolar America-led world?
It makes no sense.
But as history has told us, the decline of all empires is always difficult.
Wars.
Death.
Destruction.
If history is right, this time will be no different.
I’ve had these thoughts for years.
You can go back to my writing in 2021 to see it for yourself.
I thought this was going to be propagated by a stock market collapse as per the hedge funds making bad bets in Gamestop.
But this is so much more than this.
There’s so much more ramifications for what’s to come.
Some days it feels like reality doesn’t make sense anymore.
Like it’s all fugazi.
That we’re all focused on such meaningless stuff.
Like who won an election.
Or why Katy Perry’s declining.
When the world is just woefully unprepared for an inflationary depression and all the struggles that come with it.
Been seeing tweets about ports in the US and how empty they are.
Empty shelves are coming soon to America.
All thanks to the Donald.
That’s scary.
It means families won’t be able to afford the basics.
We’re already seeing more and more people use the buy now, pay later credit schemes for food.
That is horrifying.
The one thing I go back to though is this.
And she mentioned it in the interview.
Never let the devil take away your joy.
As shitty as the world will get, never lose your smile.
Never lose your ability to be positive.
To see the good in situations.
And good in other people.
Build people around you.
Invest time and effort in them.
Because when shit hits the fan, that’s who’s going to get you through everything.
It’s tough man.
It’s sad.
Thinking about all of this does not make me happy.
Yet I can’t help but write this.
Share these thoughts.
Get down these words.
I have to tell someone, even if no one ever reads it.
Sure other people might look at me and think I’m smart.
But there’s a burden that comes with knowing too much.