The lonely road

The lonely road:

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The lonely road.

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One never walked.

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Never taken.

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No playbook.

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Making it up as you go.

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It’s hard.

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It’s tough.

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It’s lonely.

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Some days you feel on top of the world.

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Like you have everything figured out.

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Other days, it makes no sense.

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So much volatility.

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So much self doubt.

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So much introspection.

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Was this the right path?

Should I have chosen this?

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This winding life?

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Being a doctor would’ve been easy.

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Simple.

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Do the job.

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Do that for 30 years.

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Make 250k+ and never stop.

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That life was there for me.

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In front of me.

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It’s the life most of my friends chose.

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The life my classmates chose.

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The one my brother chose.

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Being a doctor.

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Yet I decided to do something different.

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To leave it all behind.

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To enter a new world.

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One I didn’t know much about.

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Had no context in.

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Never trained for.

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Yet got into.

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And somehow, I survived.

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I made it here.

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7 years in the healthcare venture business.

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That’s not nothing.

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Sitting on boards.

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Leading deals.

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Analyzing over a thousand biotech companies.

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I did all of that.

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Even when it doesn’t feel like it.

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That has to be worth something right?

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I think so.

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But I don’t know.

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I don’t know any of this.

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If any of this is worth it.

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If this is what I should be doing.

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Writing.

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Jotting my thoughts on paper hoping they make sense.

Hoping one day someone will read this.

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That this will help someone.

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I don’t know.

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There are some days when it doesn’t make sense.

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When you wish you had the stability.

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I’m about to turn 30 and it feels like I’m starting from scratch.

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Starting from zero.

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Starting from nothing.

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None of these are objectively true, but that’s how I feel.

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A new challenge.

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A new chapter.

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A new phase of my life.

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Everyone goes through phases.

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This is how life works.

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Seasons.

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Some seasons you’ll be up.

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Everything will be going well.

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All will make sense.

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And others, it won’t.

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You’ll struggle.

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You’ll suffer.

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You’ll face difficulties you didn’t expect.

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That’s normal.

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That’s part of life.

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The struggle for me is there is no roadmap.

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There is no plan that I can follow.

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No person I can look up to and model my life after.

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Not many people go from being a doctor to being a healthcare investor and writer.

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Not to mention a guy who’s read 300+ books, written 1100 blog posts and 2 books.

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Plus someone who runs marathons and is training for an Ironman.

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There’s no person out there like that.

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And if there is, please introduce me to him because I would love to talk to him one day.

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Ask him how he makes sense of this.

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How he navigates this difficult time.

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This part of the journey has been hard.

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It’s been a struggle.

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Everything going so well when one day you wake it up and it’s all taken away from you.

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Just for speaking your mind.

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For defending those who have no voice.

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But that’s life.

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That’s the life you chose.

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The one where you’re honest.

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Courageous.

Bold.

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Speaking truth.

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This what you’ve decided you wanted your life to be.

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So you have to live with the consequences.

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To live and die by your sword.

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Sometimes it’ll be in your hand conquering the next demon.

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Other times it’ll pierce your body reminding you how fragile this all this.

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But no matter what, you’ve always made it work.

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You’ve always figured it out.

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You’ve always come out better for this.

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Your back has been against the wall before.

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Back in high school before dropping out of IB.

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And leaving medicine.

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Both of those chapters were big decision points.

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You could’ve followed the easy path.

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The one that made sense.

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The one right in front of you.

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Yet you chose something different.

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You chose to walk alone.

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You chose to go on your own.

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And here you are.

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Still walking the lonely road.

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Just remember, you’ll never walk alone.

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